“What must I do?”

Recovery Lesson #6: ACTION

Celebrate Recovery, Principle 3:

Consciously choose to commit all my life and will to Christ’s care and control.
Happy are the meek. (Matthew 5:4)

Biblically-based Twelve Steps, Step 3:

We made a decision to turn our lives and our wills over to the care of God.
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy (wholly) and pleasing to God – this is your true and proper worship. (Romans 12:1)

So far, we’ve been kind of just preparing for this recovery journey – the things we’ve “done” have been more spiritual, mental, and emotional than physical actions. First, we realized and admitted that we have a problem, that we’ve been in denial about it, but that now we are ready to make a change, ready to try something new. Perhaps we’ve been stopped dead in our tracks by a revelation about or directly from something beyond ourselves – something that can only be attributed to a higher power.

frodoNext, we came to believe, to really, earnestly believe that there is a Higher Power, if not that that Higher Power is God, our Creator. The idea has been planted in us that, with this being’s power to remake us, we have hope of being restored to a life of sanity. If you are anything like me, you are now ready to fight back – you have finally, quietly yet desperately asked, “What must I do?” (Kind of like Frodo in the early part of The Lord of the Rings, The Fellowship of the Ring.)

The One Ring of (evil) Power is a great analogy for addiction. If you’re not familiar with the story, this very common and average guy, Frodo, is given this magic ring that can make him disappear. At first, this is terrific – being invisible has its advantages. But the ring’s power over him grows and grows until it has become his master, his precious thing to run to and hide in. And there’s only one way to escape and destroy it – to literally travel into the heart of the baddest of badlands and then choose to let it go into the volcanic fires of the aptly named ‘Mt Doom’. It’s an extreme expedition full of dangers that is not likely to succeed even if he were backed by an army of 10,000 trained soldiers. Instead, Frodo must accomplish the task himself, with the help and support of a small group of companions, who are more or less on the same journey, but who have their own paths to follow. In the end, it comes down to Frodo and the one faithful friend who has never left him, who literally carries him the final steps. (For us, that friend is Jesus.)

The point is that there is ACTION we can take, things we can do, steps we can walk to get started on this trip.

The acronym ACTION stands for:

Accept
Commit
Turn it over
It’s only the beginning
One day, (one moment) at a time
Next step

joyBut first, let’s look at what we have done so far and take a moment to celebrate recovery. We have accomplished a lot! We have taken action already!  We’ve admitted, realized, accepted, came to believe, and mourned. We have done a lot of work! Since these are sedentary, thoughtful actions, however, we’re ready to physically move. I found in my own recovery that I was amped up for some ‘physical activity’ by this time. I was asking, “What can I do?”

Let me summarize where I was. I’d had decades of descending levels of acting out. Then something happened – my mom’s death. It was a change to my status quo that set me off. Within a month I had taken acting out to a new extreme – my rock bottom moment. I sought help, and – finally open to the possibility of a higher power – I began to read and seek to learn more. But I didn’t truly believe until – still falling regularly to my addiction – I hit another, deeper bottom – a suicide attempt – and was literally saved by the divine intervention of Jesus Christ. (There is no other explanation for how it happened.)

The great thing about recovery is, that even though it took some time for me to earnestly believe God exists, all it really took to get started was my initial willingness to simply consider the possibility. Part of what I had been denying was God himself. To me, He just wasn’t “logical”. Theories like evolution and the big bang made more sense to me. This faithlessness was a part of what made me susceptible to addictive behaviors: along with my pride, fear, guilt, worry, doubt, pain, fear, and stubbornness – for which I had no help, there were feelings of life’s worthlessness, meaninglessness, and emptiness, and the hopelessness that comes with thoughts like “why bother?” and “why me?”

So, in a sense, all I had ACCEPTed at first was simply that I might be wrong in my disbelief. And at that point I became ready to consciously choose something different, to change my definition of willpower to: “the willingness to accept that there might be some being outside myself who has the power to save me.” It then became a question of how much I was willing to buy in to this possibility. And, when Jesus literally intervened to spare my life, there was only one thing I could do. I spent a week in the psych ward thinking solely upon this decision.

I had to go all in. I had to COMMIT fully. All my life and will. I made a decision to TURN it all over. Everything. To offer my whole life. Accept. Commit. Turn.

I want to say something quickly about not choosing, about not taking a side. The band Rush has a song called “Freewill” in which they sing:
geddy-lee

You can choose a ready guide in some celestial voice.
If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice!

There are only two choices. With the celestial God or against Him. If I was not with God in everything I did from that moment on, then I was against him.

Proverbs 3:6 TLB
In everything you do, put God first, and He will direct you and crown your efforts with success.

In everything. Everything that I have left to give. Something hit me at that moment, that proved to me beyond a shadow of a doubt that God existed, that I mattered to Him, and that I was at long last on the path to new life. The crowning piece of evidence – which every one of us in this room can claim – is: I am alive! I am still alive, in spite of everything that I have been through, everything that has happened to me, everything that has been done to me or that I have done to myself. This ball game is not over! I was the 2004 Red Sox, down three games to none, losing in the ninth inning of Game 4. But it was not over!

red-sox-2004
I looked back at my life and saw other crucial moments and critical events that backed up the presence of God’s protecting hand. He was protecting me for this day, when I would return to Him, and then travel onward, fully with Him .

Taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is, and not as I would have it.

its-all-true
We all know this line from the Serenity Prayer. It speaks to the true reality. I now knew that God exists. That means “it’s all true.” (Just like in the movie Galaxy Quest.) The Good and the Bad. God is. And Evil exists – Satan exists – and he intentionally tries to make me fall!

But God has something better planned for me. An important part for me to play in this spiritual war.

Hebrews 12:12-13
You have become weak, so make yourselves strong again. Live in the right way so that you will be saved and your weakness will not cause you to be lost.

1 Peter 5:8-9
Be self-controlled and alert! Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in your faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Matthew 11:28-30 TLB
Come to me, and I will give you rest. Wear my “yoke” and let me teach you; for I am gentle and humble, and you shall find rest for your souls, for I give you only light burdens.

There are three important things these verses helped me to realize. First, contrary to what evil had been trying to convince me, I was not alone. There are many others who understand what I was going through. Second, there was a way I could fight back. A way I could become strong again. A right way for me. For me.

Jesus says He is the way, and this is true, in general, but for each of us, there are specific, personal actions to take. I know that x, y, and z are not good for me – they are my weaknesses, so I must stay away from them – no matter what anyone else does. Everyone has their own weaknesses that they must work on.

The third thing I realized was that the way to combat my weaknesses was to learn about them, and to learn about Jesus and build a personal relationship with Him, and that this is something I must choose to undertake every day. It’s an ongoing process, a lifelong journey of seeking and following God’s will.

Let’s go back now to our acronym. We’ve Accepted, Committed, and Turned. The “I” reminds us that “It’s only the beginning” of our journey, and the “O” reminds us that we must take it One Day, One Moment at a time. Every day, every moment. This day. Today.

Matthew 6:34 TLB
Don’t be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow, too.
Live one day at a time.

Living one day at a time. Enjoying one moment at a time.

img_3337I want to conclude with some specific, deliberate things we can do – things we must do – to stay on this path to sanity, and continue to build our relationship with God and Jesus Christ. These are concrete actions we can take.

First, we must go on the offensive! The best defense is a good offense. For us in recovery, being on offense means pro-actively getting ourselves prepared. We’re all already doing one thing that helps us do that: attending meetings. Building a list of support contacts. Getting phone numbers and email addresses.

Second, there is one sure way to get to know all about God and his purpose for us: dedicating daily time with Him, reading the Scriptures, journaling our thoughts and progress, recognizing what we have to be thankful for, and meditating and praying ceaselessly.

Third, when we are tempted – and we will be tempted, mercilessly – we must look for God’s way out.

1 Corinthians 10:13
The only temptations you have are the same temptations that all people have. But you can trust God. He will not let you be tempted more than you can bear. But when you are tempted, God will also give you a way to escape that temptation. Then you will be able to endure it.

That way out may be a phone call, a meeting, or even just falling to my knees in desperate prayer, crying out to God. But there is always a way. I can promise you that. And I can promise that eventually, it gets easier to resist temptations. They won’t go away completely, but they will get easier to bear.

Meanwhile, the “N” in ACTION stands for “Next Step”. We have only just begun this journey, and there is a long way to go. I have another acronym to help to make sure we are on the path. It’s B.A.S.E.
Ask yourself,
– Do I Believe in Christ and His resurrection
– Do I Accept God’s forgiveness for all my sins
– Am I Switching to God’s plan for my life
– Am I Expressing my desire for Christ

The next step is where we begin to get down and dirty: our spiritual and moral inventory. Establishing a daily practice of quality time with God will help us get ready for this.

Are you ready to move and fight for and with God?

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s