A doubleminded man is unstable in all his ways.
-James 1:8 KJ21
And that’s about as simple and straightforward as it can be put. I’m very familiar with James 1:8 – it’s kind of a theme verse for me. (My motto is, “Waiting for something to happen.”)
Thankfully, this week I still desire to write/blog (although, I had to make myself sit down and write this).
However, I’m still not sure exactly what I want to say.
So I googled “double-mindedness” and found all sorts of advice on how to overcome it.
“Want what God wants. Seek His ways in His Word. Confess your desire for two things that can’t coexist and put off the behavior that is keeping you from becoming more like Christ.”
Double-mindedness is caused by a division of the soul:
“This division is usually a result of trauma…molestation, abandonment, rejection, divorce, betrayal, or church hurt…”
I learned a couple of Greek words:
- di-psychos – “wavering or divided interest” “two souls”
- akatastatos – “unable to stand or unable to be set” “unstable”
Everyone is tempted by His own desires as they lure him away and trap him.
“Often we find ourselves immersed in behaviors we know are wrong, addictions, eating disorders, bad habits… other dysfunctions… cognitive dissonance… We develop physical and emotional symptoms of agitation, anxiety, panic, and depression.”
The disappointments of life always seem to be hovering around when I’m feeling the doubt:
“Sometimes who we wish we were, what we wish we could do, is just not meant to be.”
“The answer to the question you have been asking yourself. Who are you meant to be?”
I’ve always know double-mindedness; in procrastination, unrealistic delusions, rationalizations, perfectionism (leading to postponing action altogether), escapism, and keeping only my own counsel. These are the things that rob me of confidence and motivation. Trying to avoid them by idleness and over-leisureliness is obviously not the answer.
But God “justifies, sanctifies, and empowers” me to act on the choices that will bring me to His version of me – the most perfect me I can be. He is the one, after all, who created me.
Do I know what that is? What purpose He has for me?
I see that the evidence of the circumstances and events of my life suggests the best way to serve:
Who Am I?!
I am God’s man!
I am a survivor
Here to help
I am doing,
and with Him,
I am making
In my heart, though, I struggle with wanting just the rewards – the popularity and financial bounty – enabling a lifestyle of comfort and ease (not doing/serving).
These are two of my things that can’t coexist.
My Post-A-Day February challenge is having mixed results: 3 posts in 7 days…