When I Wanna “One”

When I Wanna “One”

I have told you this so that through me you may have peace. In the world you’ll have trouble, but be courageous—I’ve overcome the world!
John 16:33 ISV

Yes, trouble, tribulations, trials, tempests, and temptations all are to be expected in this world. It’s what I do when they show up that makes all the difference.

I’m part of a small accountability partnership with some brothers, in which we daily group-text a numerical status. It’s a simple scale of 1-5, with “1” being an absolute failure, a return to old ways. (Note, no one ever gets a “5.”)white,antique,fall,chain,isolated,steel

I’d like to think that integrity and pride and desperation are enough to keep me from having to post a “1,” but they are not the only safeties I turn to “when I wanna one.”

Here are a few of them…

Yes, I know that nothing good lives in me—I mean nothing good lives in the part of me that is not spiritual. I want to do what is good, but I don’t do it.
Romans 7:18 ERV

But first, it’s not “I,” the me this verse refers to. It’s my flesh, my physical body, this very breakable jar of clay. “I” am the spiritual part of me, my soul, and that me desires to be completely faithful.

Second, it’s not “I,” not me, myself, but the unseen enemy, the Great Liar and Deceiver, the tempter. Viewing it this way makes me want to fight, to resist more.

wood,warm,glass,wall,tool,instrumentAnd though a man might prevail against one who is alone, two will withstand him—a threefold cord is not quickly broken.
Ecclesiastes 4:12 ESV

Third, it’s not even “I” alone, it’s “we,” Me and the Holy Spirit dwelling within me.

And finally, it’s not even just the two of us, because my God is a Triune God: Maker, Fixer, and Helper. And me.

You are tempted in the same way that everyone else is tempted. But God can be trusted not to let you be tempted too much, and he will show you how to escape from your temptations.
1 Corinthians 10:13 CEV

tool,food,symbol,balance,measure,gaugeEvery addict and obsessive, compulsive “user” should know this verse by heart. Everyone faces struggle – maybe specific to each, but similar in that we all get it. Any strategy for escape is shareable.

Here are ten I just brainstormed, in the order they arrived.

  • road,sidewalk,wall,asphalt,lane,memorialleave the house for almost anywhere
  • go for a walk, take the dog for a walk
  • grab my Bible and read
  • get on my knees and pray, “my eyes completely fixed on [God]
  • carefully reflect on what I have been led to do in my past
  • call or text a brother
  • look at my yard, for motivation to work on Adventures in Downsizing
  • look at Zillow
  • worship music, hitting “shuffle” on the 400+ songs on mIphone, to receive a message from God (the quoted lyric is from The Hurt and the Healer – Mercy Me)
  • think about my loved ones and how falling would be a betrayal of them
  • “Remember those earlier days, after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering.” Hebrews 10:32

That last one was a bonus.

Your turn, what are some ways you use to resist temptation?black and white,wheel,tool,weather,gauge,monochrome

All images from pxhere.com.


My Testimony at Celebrate Recovery, Oct 19, 2017

My Testimony at Celebrate Recovery, Oct 19, 2017


I’m a very grateful believer in the God of the Bible, and this is not my story; it is God’s Story in My Life. My name is Marshall.

Although I was raised in the church and even went forward at an altar call when I was a ten or so, I was prodigally lost for most of my life, falling into habits of sexual brokenness, alcohol abuse, and wasting my precious time here on earth.

BUT… in 2008 at 46 years of age, I was saved by the divine intervention of Jesus Christ, who literally took my place during a suicide attempt. Now I live by Psalm 66:16:

“Come and hear, all you who fear God. Let me tell you what he has done for me.”

Ever since that life-saving day nine years ago, I have been attending recovery programs; and Celebrate Recovery since 2010. The Twelve Steps, Eight Principles, and God’s countless blessings have brought me through healing and transformation in so many ways, I would need the whole night to share them all.

So, to make sure you get to hear Lori’s miraculous testimony, I’ll share the top five. Continue reading “My Testimony at Celebrate Recovery, Oct 19, 2017”