Be Enough For Me! (Not A ‘Picture’ Prayer)

Friday, March 29, 2018 – 01:31

Father God, our Creator, above and beyond what we are; what we could ever be on our own. You promise that we will join You. Someday. One Glorious Day.

Well, Thank You for this day. Thank You for again waking me to divine potential, for a chance to follow You closely, making the next right choice, and the next right choice, and the next, and the next. (Really, that’s all it takes.)

Father, You, having been like us as a son – The Son – know how hard – how impossibly hard – it is for us to simply stay on the right path. These temptations constantly overwhelm and drag us down.

Maybe it’s the instant gratification we long for; we never want to wait patiently for Your perfect timing. We yearn to feel it now, see it now, taste it now, know it all now, have it all now.

We are so easily fooled that earthly pleasures – “in ways, or at times, or to degrees You never intended” – are that “it.” (Thank you, C. S. Lewis.)

Isn’t “it” what You Are? Aren’t You what we need to be filled? But instead, don’t we want to be You? Independent and in control? Calling the shots? Same as Adam and Eve; we haven’t changed much.

Oh, we surely do have the knowledge of good and evil. We are fully aware of which choice is the one we should make. (How I hate that word, “should!” And I’d be free of it if I could, would just by default make right choice after right choice.)

I’m thankful because You Are Christ and can therefore sincerely care for/about us. You know how hard it is for us.

Psalm 34 GW
:14 Turn away from evil, and do good.
Seek peace, and pursue it!

:19 The righteous person has many troubles,
but the Lord rescues him from all of them.

We call You “Our Father.” Like an earthly father, You’ve been there; You’ve done it all Yourself. And since You know the troubles we face, You Are willing to “rescue us from all of them.”

We will have storms in this life, in this broken world. We have to be constantly alert; You warn us. You teach us.

But being on alert all the time does not come naturally to us, and too often we want a break, a day off. We want to take it easy and just drift along with the current. As if we are still children in our father’s house.

Maybe that’s what this is all about. We have to learn and choose to put away the childish things; to be grown and mature, and to know with all our heart, soul, mind, and flesh, that we are better off taking that next right choice – no matter how tempting or shiny anything else looks.

Father, will I ever be able to do that consistently? Will I be ready to stay in Your house by choice and to put away my desire to be the boss of me? To accept that being Your grown-up child still living (as if) in Your home is the best (and easiest) way to thrive in this world?

I pray for this! God, be enough for me!

I know I need to DARE

I know I need to DARE

Wednesday, March 28, 2018 – 04:16

Father God, Thank You for this day of life in Your constantly amazing creation. Thank You for this week’s 50+-degree temps here in New England, a hopeful sign that warmer weather will indeed come (eventually) this year. This winter seems to have been colder later than usual.

0a822e1e-36ec-48d9-9e1a-c8abdc58d068-421-00000051d99b40d1_filePost-dialysis yesterday was rough; I slept an extra hour and went to bed early but I did record the Bruins’ game to watch this evening. (So don’t tell me who won!) Again, I have to Thank You for what science and technology have developed by learning about the laws governing Your world. From machines that can clean our blood (by osmosis, BION!) to those that can show us what’s happening this very moment thousands of miles away, who can imagine what will come next?

Father, today I pray for my appointment with the Transplant Clinic’s psychiatrist. May I reach reassurance and courage to someday face another surgical procedure, knowing now from personal experience that bad things can happen. You know how I finally ran out of luck with hospitals this past November.

operation(By my count, I’ve had eight stays of 10+ days since mid-2014, plus countless overnight observations and ER visits.) Continue reading “I know I need to DARE”

If I Knew Then…

If I Knew Then…

Monday, March 26, 2018 – 02:36

Heavenly Father, Thank You for this day. Thank You for the opportunity in this life to be a parent. Thank You, even more, for bringing a grandchild into my life – a second chance, of sorts.

img_0530Thank You, most of all, for Your Word, our Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth (B.I.B.L.E.).

I could have entitled this post “When Your Phone Rings At 11:53pm.” We parents dread those calls because we know the blaring ringing waking us from sleep is quite possibly the cry of a child still learning to adult.

So it was tonight.fuel-gauge empty 2741_960_720

Continue reading “If I Knew Then…”