Daily Prompt: Deny – The First of the Twelve Steps
Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addictions and compulsive behaviors, that our lives had become unmanageable.
Step One of any Alcoholics Anonymous (AA)-inspired addiction recovery program is all about denial; that is, stepping out of denial.
When it dawns on us that we have a real problem, a big problem, a really big problem, beyond our own ability to solve, we’re poised for Step One.
Actually, this is the starting point for any healing plan of action, from any obsessive, addictive, compulsive, or self-destructive habit.
It is the hardest yet the easiest step. Continue reading “Daily Prompt: Deny – The First of the Twelve Steps”
Step 2: We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
For it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill His good purpose. (Philippians 2:13)
Principle 2: Earnestly believe that God exists, that I matter to him, and that He has the power to help me recover.
Happy are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted. (Matthew 5:4)
The Serenity Prayer
God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I can not change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time,
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardship as a pathway to peace;
taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is,
not as I would have it;
trusting that You will make all things right,
if I surrender to Your will;
so that I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with You forever in the next.
Continue reading “Step 2: Recover, Restore Sanity”
Step 10: We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
Step 11: We sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and power to carry that out.
There’s a word in these steps – one single syllable -which scares me. It condemns and convicts me (and I assume you, too). Uttering this term causes my heart to fear and doubt, to dwell on shame and hopelessness, despite what my head knows. Do you know what word that is?
When, not if. When. It dictates the inevitableness of my fall(s). Like I am doomed to fail, probably time and again. (And so it has proved to be.) I really have no confusion about why I relapse – when it comes down to it, it is wholly by my choice. I want (and take) what I want.
Continue reading “The Twelve Steps: Recovery Amid Relapse(s), Is There? (Steps 10-11)”